ELEMENTARY LIFE
I am the 4th children of my parents. That is why during that time my older sister was the one who taking care of me.my mother told me that my sister was very hard of taking care of me because it takes a long time for me to learned how to walked. While my sister playing with her friends she taking care of me. I just remembered when I was one year old my brother brought me to the house of his friend to watch an action movie. During that time we do not have a television. That is why every time we were going to watch a TV our parents brought us to our neighbor just to watch. but during that time it was my brother who brought me to watch a TV. of course during that time there was no DVD or CD they were using the Beta max to watch a movie. As usual what did you expect if you could see a group of boys watching a movie. it was an action movie. if I'm not mistaken it was a Bong Revilla movie. that was my first time to watch an action movie. that is why at that time watching that movie i was crying because i was thinking that it was real. i am afraid go guns. when i cried they told my brother that is was better to take me home. then my brother took me home and explain that it was not real. my father asked home why i am crying then my brother explain it to my father what happened? my father got angry to him. he told my brother not to do to again.
when i was 2 years old my mother said that i was very small. she said that I'm like a baby walking in the street. at that age of 2 my younger brother Omar was already born. all of us were born in the house that is why my mother decided to deliver our younger brother in house. she delivered him normally. my mother said that during that time she delivered my brother i was crying. my older sister was the one who taking care of me at that time. my parents name my younger brother Omar as the Aleem told my father that the name Omar is fitted to him. my parents agreed to that. my aunties told me that my parents will throw me in the garbage because they had a new baby. i was crying when i heard that. but my father told me that they were just kidding that my parents still love me even though they had their baby boy. my younger brother was very different to us. he has a fair complexion unlike us that we are brown. sometimes our neighbor were kidding and told us that he was adopted that he is not my brother. during that time my older sister who always taking care of me. my mother was still recovering and of course she was the one who taking care of my younger brother. when my brother was born my parents decided to stop having a baby because they were very contented to have a five children. actually we were six but one of us died at the age of 5, his name was "Alibair". i am supposed to be the sixth children. my parents told me that i am not so lucky because our business were getting bankrupt. my mother told me that during my older sister time their business were getting better until my father decided to enter in politics in which it was the reason why our business got bankrupt. actually he won as a counselor in our province but suddenly after his term every thing was gone.
this picture was happened during my 3 years old. starting at the left side is my loving mother. my cousin and my brother then me. my cousin was graduated in the Mindanao State University during that time. as i had remembered they arrived at home at night since we celebrated her graduation in our province at Bacolod- Kalawi Lanao Del Sur. In the left side of my mother was our store since my parents had no permanent work that was the only way to support our everyday life. actually as my mother said that when we started our store they had just a small capital until we gain more profit. as i had remember during rainy days i and my younger brother made a paper boat and we played it in the side of our store. my father made us many paper boat for us to use it during rainy days. during that time i and my younger brother were very closed. we ate together and we slept together. at that age every 12 noon my mother let us slept in order for us to grow. my parents always promise that if we slept they will give us money and they will buy us ice cream. but the worst happen in my life during that age was during my parents got argued. they went home since our house is beside the lake and our store is beside the road. suddenly were the only who left in our store. so were the one who entertain the customer even though we do not know the exact price. unfortunately my granny saw us and he asked us where are our parents? then we said to our granny that they went home and it looks like they were arguing. my granny let us close the store and take to their house. my granny went in our home and since were too young to understand what really happen we do not know what was going on as far as a know at that time when we went home they were okay. every thing was okay.
as i had remember this was the worst happen in my life at this age. my father teach me how to read and write. our wall was full of numbers, litters even in the Arabic alphabet. since he had no permanent work to do he was focused on teaching me how to read and write. at that age i am a fast learner that is why my father loves to teach me every day. he gave me enough time to study and to play with my friends. if I'm not mistaken he wrote on the top of the wall what are the bad and the good things we should remember in our every day life. before we started to study he let us read that reminder for us to always remember those written in the wall. that was not the worst happen in my life. the worst was at that age i experienced to be in the situation between life and death. i just remembered during that night we were in the store. my parents were talking to my aunties. at that time there was no light. while they were talking i sat down beside my mother and whisper her that i am thirsty. she told me to go in my aunties house since it was no light i was afraid to go to my aunties house because it was so dark. my mother told me that if i am not going there then i should be patience until we go home. i go inside the store and i found one gallon inside not to think that gallon is a gas. i did not realized the smell since i was very thirsty and i was just 4 years old that time. my mother saw me and she called my father. my father lend me in his legs and try his best to save my life in that danger until he realized that he can not do it. he called my uncle and we use his car to go in Marawi City for me to cure there. after what was happened that time i got a phobia on the gas. every time i saw a gallon inside the store i never touch it.
my father sent me to school at that age. actually it was just a temporary. my father plan was send me to school as a kinder since in that school in our province there was no kinder level. he asked a permission to the principal if i am accepted to go in grade 1 with the standing of kinder. his plan was at the age of 6 he will sent me to grade 1 and at that time it was just an introductory to me so that when i entered in grade 1 i am ready to face it. at that time i was very interested in studying even though i knew that it was just a temporary i took it as a big challenge on my part. i was competing to all my classmates even though i knew that they were advanced than me. i tried my very best to become in a first rank in our class. suddenly i become the leader in our section. unfortunately my teacher realized that i had a good performance in our class and i can compete to my other classmates. even though i am already studying in school my father still teach me in our house. he always assess me in my study. he looked at my lesson and then he reviewed it to me. in that time we had our new teacher who came in Binidayan. she is very nice. she likes kids. we become very close. i became her little sister not just pupil and she became my older sister not just teacher. she cared for me as her sister. every time they had their allowance she always go to Iligan and bought me a chocolates and sometimes she bought me a paper and pencil. it was very obvious that she likes me so much because for all the pupils she chose me to be her friend. as the vacation comes near my teacher talked to my father and told her about my standing. she told my father that by next year i will be in grade 2 level i was no longer qualified in grade 1. my father asked me if i can do to step up in grade 2 next year. suddenly before the recognition day my adviser inform my father that i am the first honor in our class.
i was grade two in this age. my father taught me how to sing the song on the month in a Tagalog way. actually this time i am very encouraged to do many things,my teacher always told us that if we can do the activity she required us to do she will give us 1 pad paper and pencil. sometimes 1 bag of chocolates. of course all of us were inspired to do that activity she required. at that age i was very aggressive to do many things even looking for my grade after our examination. i can not stop asking what was my grade in our examination. every time we had our program i am the representative of our school to fight to the other school. because according to my teachers i can memorized well and easy. of course in my side it was overwhelming for all the pupils in our school i am the one they chose to be the representative. i can not say that all of the contest i had joined i was the winner, sometimes i am in the top 2 but i also try my very best to be the number 1. i can not forget what happened to me in this age. one day we had our examination. i came late in our class but then again my teacher allow me to take an examination. suddenly the exam was in oral way. i am a sloe writer that is why it was very hard to me to cope up in the examination. it irritates me because i was left behind by my other classmates so i decided to walk out during the exams. my teacher talked to my father about what happened. he was very angry. he called me while i am playing and then he punished me.he put me on the sack and tied it tightly. at that time i am promising that i will not do it again. i begged him to take me out in the sack. it takes a long time for me to get out in the sack. my sister was the one who untie the knot. after that my mother told me to take a bath and pray. i was so messy because i cried so much.of course i learned from my mistake. i learned not to be hot tempered and control myself. have enough patience.
in this year i can say that it was also memorable because during my young age i was a boyish. i played with the boys even basketball. i had a lot of friends during this time. i became more friendly unlike during my grade 1 and 2. i became the leader in our school since our school is composed only for grade 1-3. all the pupils in our school knew me. not only that, they knew me because of my family background. i enjoyed my life starting in grade 1-3. i felt so special because the teacher showed that i am spacial. one thing that i can not forget in this year was when there was a time that i and my cousin had a fight. actually there was a gap between my parents and their parents. that was the first time that i argued to someone. i was very afraid that time because i knew that they will tell their parents what happen. so expect the unexpected, while my mother was in our store here comes my uncle and he was very angry. he confront my mother. he said that i am such a bad girl. another memorable at this age was i learned how to swim? actually it was unexpected but it just happened. i just remembered that during those time my brother together with his friends were swimming. i was begging him to allow me to swim but he refused because i do not know to how to swim. suddenly because of being aggressive to swim i step down in the water and then i swim to him. and then i continue swimming until i became master how to swim?
when i was in grade 4 my parents decided to send me to Marawi to continue my study since my siblings are studying in Marawi. my father enrolled me to my aunt since she is a teacher in APCES. i was very anxious at that time because it was my first time and i do not have any friends there. suddenly my teacher had a set arrangement so she called us one by one while entering in the classroom. my father was not there because at that time he had a job. i am very afraid. i do not know what to do until my teacher called me and i did not go to her. she thought that i go with my father. apparently after calling all my classmates and they were already inside the room she saw me crying. she comfort me. she asked me what was the problem? i told her that i had a headache even though it is not true.it was just an excuse for me to go home. she told me to wait my father inside the room. when she saw my father coming she explain what happened? so my father decided to take me home. at that time i discovered new friends. i became more expose in many things. at first i was so ignorant. i was thinking that a Marawi people were not so approachable but its backfire me. they were the one who approach me until we became best of friends. we ate together during lunch time. we played together. at the end of the year i was so surprised because mt adviser told me that i am with honor. of course it was overwhelming because even though i came in province still i proved to them that i can compete to them.
at this age i experience again the situation between life and death. i can not forget that Saturday afternoon. i was in the lake because i was brushing my slippers that i am going to use inside the room tomorrow morning. while brushing my slippers i heard some burst. at first i was thinking that it was just a practice until i saw our neighbor running with his gun. i felt very afraid that something was going on. i wear my slippers and ran to our house until i saw my brother running to me. he instruct me to stay inside our neighbor house until everything will be alright. as the time goes by the burst was already gone. my father pick me up and take me to his parents house in which all of my siblings, relatives were there. i was very afraid because wither we like it or not we were going to cross the road because my granny's house is beside the road. suddenly my father decided that were not safe in that place anymore so we move to the other place. actually that was happened at around 5:00 pm and we moved to other place at around 1:00 am. during that time i had an exam. when we arrived in the house of our relatives my father told me to sleep. and then at the morning my father told me that every thing is alright.
in my grade six level it was challenging to me because i was in the first section unlike my grade 4-5 i was in the second section. and not only that, all of my classmates are intelligent and three of them are my relatives. and i know that they will compared me to them. as the days goes by some of them become my friends. and one of my relative in that section become my friend. we get to know each other since i grown up in our province and then they grown up here in Marawi. i prove to them that even though i came in province but still they do not have the right to underestimate me. as they have said "silent is dangerous" as a proved at the end of the year my adviser talked to me and she congrats and she was very proud to me that i am a with honor. i show to them that i am belong to that section.
HIGH SCHOOL LIFE
during my first year as a high school student in UTC i was afraid because this is another journey in my school life. at this age i learned a lot. i learned how to act like a lady and i learned the right path to be a lady. at this time i had experienced and i had found out what is mean by crush? at first i can not connect to my other classmates during those time they were talking about their crushes. i can not believe that at this age i felt to have a crush to someone that i do not know. he is my senior. actually he is popular in our campus because he is a member of the band in our campus. no one knows about it. because i am a kind of person who is very secretive when it comes to crush. i just keep it to myself. actually most of my classmates had a crush on him that is why every time they asked me who is my crush just pretend that i do not have a crush. for me i believe that the more the other person know about it the less excitement you can feel every time you see that someone. in that case in order for me to have more excited to see him i just keep it to myself.
i got menstruates in this year level. i can not forget it because i was praying at that time. and then finally i felt something that i never felt before. i was afraid because since from the start nobody tells me about that. i almost cried. i sat down beside my prayer mat. then finally my mother saw me ans she asked me what was wrong. i do not know what to do and if i am going to tell her about that. finally my mother get it then she asked about it. i explain to her what was really happened. she just scared me while smiling at me. i was begging her to tell me the truth. my father arrived and he asked my mother what was happening? my mother finally told my father that i got menstruated. my father bought me a "newtex" my mother told me to use that. she instruct me to act like a lady because i am no longer a child. i should be very careful in every thing i do. of course i was not comfortable because it was first time. suddenly in our room some of my friends who are already experience it asked me if i am already experience it. it seems that they know because according to them it was very obvious. apparently at this year level i found out a new friends who becomes my best friend. we made our group and we called "Enchanted Charming". some of our classmates called us "Silent girls" or " Team Silent" because as they had said that we are all silent. we are very close to each other. we are not just friends but more than a friends. we decided that we should have our anniversary so we settled that every July 15 is our anniversary. so every 15 of July we are going to celebrate it and not only that each one of us are obliged to write a letter to each other during our birthday. and during July we are having our open forum. we are going to express our feelings to each other especially something happen. like for instance i make them feel hurt but i do not know so they are obliged to tell me so that i can apologized to them.
at this year level there were lots of problems came in our personal life. each one of us has a personal problem. of course as a friend we are the one to comfort each other. during this time i can not forget what happen to my family. it was very memorable to me because this time my parents were going to divorced and it happens in my birthday. i do not know what to do. i am a kind of person who just keep all the problems without sharing to other. but my friends are very understandable even though i keep it they are still there to support me and advise mt that everything will be alright. since it was my birthday at that time they wrote a letter to me. it was full of advises, encouragement that every thing will be alright. that all of this was just an examination by the God how strong i am and how faithful i am to him.actually without their support i almost give up that time . thanks a lot to them because without them who are there to support me during that time i do not know what happened. they are the one who made me stronger during that time.
during my 4th year level this was the best life i ever had in my high school life. because comes to think about it, it takes a long time for me to see my name in the list of the with honor. i was afraid not to be part on it because that was my dream in my high school life to be part of it. i tried my best to be part of it. at that time i just focus on my study. and not only that i should also be ready in the SASE examination. so it was very defying to me. at that time i was so pressured because my father told me that i should be like my brother that during that time he was studying here in Mindanao State University and he was scholar at that time. my brother also pressured me. he always asked me if can do it. for the God's well i passed in the SASE exam. of course i am proud to myself because at last i did it. and not only that many people want to be part here in Mindanao State University and i am glad that finally i will become part of this university. actually during the time I'm going to attend in the SASE exam i almost cried because i ma afraid that what if i failed in this battle. i do not want that my parents will get disappointed on me especially my father.
COLLEGE LIFE
this is another journey in my school life but this time it is more defying. during this time i am not so sure what am i going to do in my college life. i am not ready to face the challenges in college life that is why i do not know what course i am prepared to enrolled. Suddenly I goes to the college of education I attend the examination. Since iIam not so sure if I am going to the College of Education I just said to myself that if can pass in the exam then i will take it. For God's well i passed the exam then i stayed in that college. I accept all the challenges that will happen to me. actually in my first year here in this university i was so ignorant. I do not know how to use a library and the computer. I was so innocent in many things here in the university. During that time i felt that all the problems in the world is in me. the most memorable teacher i ever mate during this year level are Ms. Abdelgafur who became my inspiration to stay in the College Of Education and pursue my course as a future teacher. The other one is Prof. Marohombsar-Bara who was my teacher in history 3 during my first year. Actually i took up the history 1 and 3 in same semester. I was very challenged to her because she was the only one who rock my world in a way of i should comes to class early especially during exam because if the students comes late during exam she will not allow her to take an exam. I learned how to study 6-6. I learned a lot from her. one thing i can not forget in this year was my subject in the college. That was my first major subject that time and my teacher let me report. And to think about i am just the first year in that section because all of them were second year. During that time I am in the front my teacher asked me about my year level. when i told her i am just first year she was shocked.but she encourage me that even though I am just first year in that section I would show them that I can do it also. In that day I become popular to her. she always called me.Actually this time in my second semester here I enrolled the English 2 and Filipino 2 subjects which are all term paper. It was so hard to me because i do not know how to use computer. In order for me to have a research in the net or even every time i had a requirement that it should be encoded I goes to my brother or my friends who know how to use computer and begging them to help me. At this year also was my first time to experience how to defense a paper. Actually in my first defense it was the Filipino, because of being afraid I did not realized that my tears falls down when my mentor asked me if the term paper helps me a lot. I cried because I did not expect that I can survive all the struggles happened to me in that subjects or in my first year as a college student here.
At this time I am still innocent in a college life. I am still not ready to face the challenges that will come to me. I felt that i am still a high school student. I am not so matured about the college life. Although it became more defying to me all the subjects I had enrolled at this time. I can say that in my college life I just go on the flow. Whatever happened then I will accept it whatever it takes. Even though this time I have no idea what am i going to do? And what were the things I wanted in my life. I am still confusing in my college life. This time one of my subject that challenge me is the Mathematics. I am a slow learner when it comes to math. Sometimes I goes to my friends just to teach me about the math. actually in Mathematics it takes a long time for me to understand all the formulas given. Every time I goes to our room I always pray to God to help me understand all the formulas that the teacher will give. and for God's well I passed that subject. I was very happy because at last i survived that subject. Actually I am not the only one who was afraid about that subject even my parents were afraid because they know what was my standing in that subject. They always told me that if i did not understand the discussion I will go to the teacher and asked her to explain it again or else I would go to my other classmate who knows about it. They always encourage me not to be shy or not to be afraid in asking a questions. This year also was my first time to have an English major it is English 7. My teacher on that subject was Sir Amarillo. I learned a lot from him.One thing that i can not forget about that subject was when we had our impromptu speech. At that time my name was called I almost collapsed because I am the first who will stand in the front and chose a question on the box then after reading it to them then you can start answering it. God's well because I got the simple question. After reading it I answered and I felt that I can not hear those words I said in front. But suddenly I survive in his subject. He always encourage us. Actually I admired him because he is so honest to himself. He is so proud of what he has now. So the most part that irritates me is to compared me to him. I am not insecure to him. Actually I am very proud to him.But I hate that they comparing us. My point is, he can do that and I can do this.
This was the worst year in my college life. It has a lot of disappointment, discouragement etc. Everything was wrong. Actually in this year I realized that I would do my very best to have a good grade and to improve many things happened. I just realized that if I can go back from the start I step here in this university I would do my very best to make all the things right. I learned a lot in this year. I have just realized that I am now a third year but still what I had learned in the past is not enough for me to become a successful teacher. I had just realized what are my goals in life? And it also adds that my father wants me to shift in other course. It was so disappointing because for all this years they want me to shift into another course. Sometimes I asked myself why I chose this course? But one thing that comes in my mind is I want to become a successful teacher someday. I want to share my knowledge to those people who want it. My second question to myself why English? but still I do not have exact answer on that. But sometimes i was thinking that maybe this is the best for me. God knows what is best. But as a student I can say that I do my very best but maybe it is not my time. Actually I am so pressured because my relatives compared me to my older brother. They always asked me how's my study? and when will be my graduation? It irritates me because every individual is unique. And do not want to compared mt to my brother because I admit that his intelligent than me. Because he graduated here in this university as a Cum laude with the course of AB History. And then he also teach here.
I am not graduating this year because I am 1 semester extended. This year I feel how hard to be a 4th year student. It seems that I am graduating. There are lot of requirements to be pass on time. I can not imagine where to start? Actually all the requirement i have this semester rocks my world. But I have many experiences in this year. Like for instance in our ComStud 50. I learned how to create a blog spot. I became an actress.I found new friends. I enjoyed everything even though it's very tired but at least it is worthed. As they have said "Learning without experience is better than experience without learning". It is truth because experience would stay forever in our heart. It will not fade away. And for me you can learn from your experiences. Sometimes your experience would make you stronger and better person.
